...can't go running back.

In the name of Allah, the One who created all the prettiest things in the galaxy.

Praise be to You, You've created the kind, beautiful people around me.

Pour your blessings on us, we are all prepared to start anew, I have just one wish for the moment, please keep my family united, as strong as before and maybe even stronger than we've ever been. Because dear Almighty, my family is the air I breathe, the thing now is I'm suffocating because something, some forces somewhere are slowly pulling us apart. I've let go of what I should, what I thought You wanted me to let go of, I have nothing else I would want for myself anymore, so please, hold us together till the end of time, we are all that we have.

And as much as I want to go back to the life I've left, I'm struggling so hard to not think of the one who keeps haunting me in my dreams. There is no way I can keep you off my mind, not even for a moment. I'd stay away from you, but you know and you should have known better that no matter how far I walk away from you, whenever you call out for me, I'd be there because the thing is I've always been waiting for only you no matter how far I go, and no matter what you might think of me, the thing is my heart is never opened up for anyone else.
Just so you know. I've forgotten about you for a while now. Well, do you believe that? Believe me, I have, and it's been easy. You buy that? And yes, my heart does not skip a beat anymore now everytime I look at your picture or your old texts and just anything about you. Well, screw you, my hands still shiver every night I switch my phone back on although there's nothing from you.

For now, I have to survive this battle for I have my family's life and fate at stake. Goodbye love. Maybe one day, you'll stop for a while, look back over your shoulder and decide to call out my name. I will come before you know it. Because I love you. I told you years ago, you're my all-time favourite, remember? :)