to my dearest angel

In the name of Allah, the only one who knows what's written in this fragile little heart.

Tomorrow's 10th December again, 6 years have passed, Happy anniversary to my most precious bestfriend, Mazreen Mohd.Kamal :) I love you very much and I miss you so much more. I really wish you're here with me, not just to celebrate our special day but you're the only person who can keep me strong especially during this kinda time. I wish I can go back to those days when all the joy in the world belong only to the both of us and it's like we own the entire planet. You were always the right person, when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm crumpy, even when I'm being absolutely ridiculous about practically everything, you've always been the right person and you've always been by my side. Thank you. And I wish I can turn back time and correct all my mistakes because now I regret all the moments I've wasted not spending time with you when I had the chance because now I hope I can have those moments back and spend each and every one of them with you, so badly. Insyaallah in 7months I will see you again, and I promise to be a better friend. You know, I feel like running away from the entire world, even from myself, I wish I can tell you what I'm going through and how hard things are now because you'd understand me so well :'( you would know the right words to say, and you'd know just how to cheer me up, and that's why I said, you're the only person who can keep me strong now in the situation I'm currently in. You know, this blog has been replacing you, it's the only place I can let go of what I feel inside when you're not around. Things have been so hard nyah :'( so hard and I never really said it to anyone because I'd only say it to you because you're the only one who'd understand. And now I feel like I'm talking to you that my tears are streaming down my cheeks just like the day you lent me your shoulders to cry on, remember? :'( Pray for me nyah. I need your prayers, if not you. I miss you. And no worries, you're always in my prayers, ALWAYS. take care nyah, love you muccch.

6 sweet, memorable years and still counting. Insyaallah.