when you gave up hope and it comes back to pick you up from the ground..

In the name of Allah, the only one I depend on. 

Thank you Allah.

It's been so long that my whole body feels so numb yet so painful inside out. Today, I can start to feel my body again, maybe not entirely but a part of my body has come back to life - a part of my life is lighted back up today.  For the past few years, today, I cried my very first tears of joy. I saw hope. My mother told me one good news today, and by the way she told me, I couldn't be happier, she spoke the language of hope, and the joy of hearing how she said it was priceless. I saw hope again today, after so long. And after we have all given up on hopes, here they come to make us believe again. All I can pray for is that everything is going to be better soon, from today onwards, Insyaallah, God willing. I would risk my life for a moment like this, thank you Allah. You have presented me with a new life to start again from the beginning. I will try my very best, I am trying, what has left me has already left me, what I left behind has already been left behind, what has taken me for granted has lost me, what has hurt me has left me with a scar but I have forgiven them though not forgotten, what has cherished me will be my most precious treasure. For what I love but couldn't leave behind, I will keep that love and leave as I must and as you desired. Maybe it's the best for the both of us for now. For the town I left with a thousand and one memories, it was my town, it still is, and most importantly, it's OURS. "All I ask is that you'll be there when I return", remember that line? This is the new life He's giving me, a new life it is then. Walking away from you does not mean giving everything we had up, you know better, I left my heart with you, and I'm bringing yours with me, and no, I will never give it up.