SEVEN

In the name of Allah who witnessed it all.


Every single night she pathetically dreams of him, how nice of him to stop by in her dreams though. But more pathetically, each time she wakes up she has to remind herself that her dreams are not a reality and her reality is unfortunately, not a dream. This is what she's chosen. No matter how hard it will turn out to be, she's going to make the best of it and that was her word. But loving is not about posessing or owning, it's not about tying someone you love down to your side, or even your life. It's not about being selfish, but selfless. It's not about hurting or breaking hearts or giving up yourself to get hurt and your heart to get broken for the sake of this so-called love but your willingness and the strength of your faith in it . It's not about whether or not he's there for you or the days he hasn't been there, it's not about how much time you've spent together or how much longer you've spent away from one another. It's not even about those littlest things that you shared or did not share. It's not about being a girlfriend or a boyfriend or being the mother or father to your children. It's just love. The only one thing no one can ever explain. Not even Mr.Einstein, that is. As Cecilia said it, it's when you find the person who could just unravel all those layers you're wrapped with. He has unraveled her, reveal every inch of her, the ones displayed and also hidden, he has unwrapped each and every single layer. It's only him. Though people never understood why she's too dumb to stay faithful to this guy. If only she could answer it for them, as if they would understand any better, they won't. He's the only one for her.


"Take all the time you need, just don't be too late"


She'll be waiting for him no matter how long it takes because waiting is the only thing she could do anyway. She believes that one day he'll come and get her, and never let go of her ever again. Either on Earth or the hereafter, that day will come. She's given her heart to him, now she's giving him her life, or giving up her life for him, either way. Till then, her hands won't stop praying for him, praying only for the very best. 


"...just don't be too late"


And she has written seven mini chapters of her life, not much elaborated but pretty much a little bit of everything. She just survived 3 weeks without chocolates ever since she started writing her first chapter in here, and now she can stop reminding him to not be too late because afterall even if he's late, she's got nothing to regret, he's the best thing that could ever happen to her, he's the best thing in her entire life.

"Thank you Allah, thank you love"