The Wait for One Wish

If every day is Christmas,

and every night’s Christmas Eve;

I’d keep on wishing

for Santa to bring you back to me.

How can I make you understand;

This is not what I wanted to be,

If I was really born with half a mind;

I still have a heart, can’t you accept me?

“Mommy, Mommy, look, it’s a plane!”

I wanted to fly like that, remember Mommy?

You said I can reach for the stars someday,

But you sent me away, Mommy, and left me astray.

Is it because I’m different and half sane,

I am not the child I should turn out to be,

Why didn’t you trust me, now my dreams are in vain;

I’ll prove my worth, Mommy, please trust your baby.

Like wanting hot chocolate on a rainy day,

Like going to bed without a story,

I need you so much like no words can say,

I promise to be good, believe me, I’m sorry.

Tomorrow’s Christmas again and now I see

Everyone’s with their parents, warm and happy,

I’ll be sitting outside for I don’t want to miss

Seeing my Mommy walk back home to me.

Oh Mr. Santa, please listen to me

Listen to my friends’ wishes too,

We’ve been good all year, as you can see,

We’d do anything for our wish to come true.

So even if everyday’s Christmas Day,

It’s still as empty for me to believe,

As long as my Mommy is far away,

I don’t even need another day to live.

Dear Mommy, if you are listening,

All I want is to make you proud of your baby.

This is not just a note or a song to sing,

I’m calling out for you, can you hear me?

   I love you so much, just so you know,

   In case there’s no Christmas for me tomorrow,

   I’ve not much time to wait any longer,

   But all this while you’ve made me stronger.

In memory of my kids back in the Down-syndrome Home Bukit Baru, Melaka. You're my inspiration, and I love you all.