walk or crawl, time's still ticking

In the name of Allah, the one I always turn to.

"Life is going to knock us down, but the choice is ours whether or not to get back up"              - Karate Kid.

Every little now and then, oh yes we are going to stumble and fall, and it's true that we can choose to get back up, and, giving up is an attitude Allah never liked. So why would I? Why did it seem like I did? Yes I've broken down so many times, and some other people out there had so much more, you can get back up after a few times, but it's not always so easy to get your feet back on the ground, because sometimes everything breaks down all at once; your strength, your faith and hopes, your support, your energy, and sometimes you need a lifetime to get back up, sometimes it seems a little too late by the time you got up, sometimes you just can't get up because you simply don't want to, simply because you got tired of trying, and sometimes you just don't dare to get back up for you might fall back down. Whether or not you choose to get back up, the clock won't stop ticking, Earth won't stop spinning, and so that means you can never stop walking. If you don't stand back up, imagine yourself walking on your knees, crawling, but till when? Life itself is a massive heartbreak, why? Well, because of the fact that it rotates, because of the fact that there's always an exit to every entrance, because of the fact that time ticks and ticks without a single chance of delay, because of the fact that we'll come to love some things and some people that sometimes just won't stay, because of the fact that it's a never-ending lesson where experience is your only teacher and you need to "learn a lesson" in order to learn something, because of the fact that it blinds us to see the real side of things, because of the fact that life is simply like that. But that's just how precious life is; it teaches you to embrace every moment for it will fly away before you know it, and some things come just once in your entire lifetime that sometimes you just don't notice it even existed, it teaches you to live to the fullest, so you get the fullest, and everybody else around you gets the same too, it teaches you what sharing is, it teaches you to love, for every little thing is special in many different ways and you can never replace one with the other. It's life, but yet, it's always easier said. 

Life has its toss and turns, it has diverging paths, sometimes also too narrow that you just suffocate. But God made butterflies too, He made rainbows, He made the twinkling stars when it's dark, He made rain to overcome the heat, for some of us He also made snow to play with, He made flowers to colour the world, and He created everything else to colour our lives, did we not notice all that? As for me, what I can say is that, He created love, not for us to expect from someone, but for us to give out and give it all, that no matter how much we gave out, it won't ever run out. I've loved so many people, some who don't even know how much I love them, some just don't bother, some expect a little more even when I've given my all, some just don't want it, and some just take it as every other ordinary thing. What can I do? Love is something you can start but never end, it doesn't always have to be mutual, because with all the sincerity for the love you have, you don't need to expect anything back. Things have gotten so difficult, things will get difficult once in a while, but God created faith for us to believe that sooner or later, things will be alright again, like every entrance has an exit, remember? At times, you'll find yourself trembling alone, you'll find yourself calling out for just anyone but no one heard, you'll find it's better to keep quiet and later on the silence just get louder and louder till you can't stand it any longer, you'll find yourself punished by your own blindness, but you forgot someone somewhere is always looking after you and He is always there, looking out at you, whether you need him or not, He has always been there for you, but the only time you can ever call for him is when no one you expected is in sight, that's when He ever existed to you, why? 

Even if you don't feel like getting back up and walking again anymore, and even if you think you have got nothing to carry on for, He is there, don't let Him down. It is indeed easier said, but I'm saying this for myself, and only after 18years, I'm able to say this so it is NOT easy to say nor to go through it all, but He created faith for me too, and so, I will not let Him down.