a little bit of everything at the end of 1st sem.

i wonder..
how does it feel like to have a book in your hand; a book written by yourself, a story from your point of view and inspirations. what an accomplishment that is, what a wonderful feeling. will i be able to be one of the people who change lives of others with strikes of aspiration on life in each line of probably hundreds of pages of the book i write? whoa, how i wish i can do that, before my life ends at least. but well, where there's a will, there's a way, so yes, have no doubts! "The future's not ours to see, que sera sera..."

my exam is just around the corner, im freaking out, and excited as well because that means i'll be going home soon (yay!). I don't like KL. it's just tiring and sickening, oh i just hate it. although i don't love Melaka much, but at least, that's where my family and home is, and that makes it a special place, like no other. Im also excited for the 2nd semester. It's not going to be easy, but im just ready to learn everything that awaits me. 

And about my friend i talked about earlier in previous entry, i don't know what to do with her. i know she's not happy. i tried to do just anything to make her feel that everything is alright if she tries to stop looking back, but i don't think she got it, she just can't help herself, and i understand; it's not that easy. and as for me, i kept on thinking about other people, worrying about their lives, giving them the best advice anyone can get, but i don't even dare to untangle my life. i'm somewhat, conditioned to think that im okay, and everything IS going to be alright soon, and speaking of my friend there who keeps looking back, im just so much more, or should i say, so much worse that that; because i don't just look back, i live in my past, and i make it my present, and the only future i wish to see. but the only thing is that, i progress (hehe). whatever. i just don't think i live in the past because it's just what i want in life, what im attached to. yes it was my past, it is also my present, and it's the future im looking forward to. what am i talking about? well, make a wild guess, you might just get it right.

im in an unstable mood lately. weeks ago, i felt like throwing up everytime i see chocolates, and now im just having this craze for chocolates, and i've been eating a lot, i don't know, i feel hungry again a few hours after eating and that's just so inhuman =P haha. i know. i just want real food now, and where can i get abundant supply of that? 


haha, home of course.