where are you, you, and you?

yes i said, "if you never bothered asking, just don't bother at all", and when i've come to this extend, hell you're already supposed to have the better picture or idea of what i'm really in. and hell i really meant it, don't bother at all; it's amazing how doing nothing could simply break the broken pieces into another millions of pieces. i told you that i don't talk much, but when i say something, i really mean it, and it has got to mean something, and it has surely got to be important. so when i said i need you, i meant it. too bad you didn't get my point. when i said i need you, that means yes i need you, especially at a time like this. do i have to tell you everytime that i need you so that you can be there for me? i don't need you to be there everytime, i just need you to be there. yes i don't talk much, but when i say something and you took it for granted, that's such a waste. so, i'll just say it again, "don't bother at all now". do i have to cry on my knees in front of you, clear enough for you to see that i'm not okay? you knew i needed you, you just weren't there, can i ask a significant why? you knew, you just weren't there, you knew i'd be wondering why you were just not there, but you just kept me wondering, and you knew it would be just more painful for me to do it without you but you just didn't bother, and you knew i needed you, you knew i needed you, you knew i needed you, you just refused to be there, you knew i told you i need you, you knew you said you'd be there always, but you're not always there, you're not always there, you're not, and you knew when i repeat what i say, it has got to hurt so much, it has got to be just so painful, you knew, you knew, but you never bothered to listen that you didn't even notice that i've been repeating things, even in the previous posts. so where are you now.. ='( where are you now. so where are you now. i thought i was always there for you. i thought i was. i knew i was. i knew i've always been there. but why can't you see that i need you to be here for me too. you knew i'd be needing you, but you let me do this on my own. i can't seem to pick myself up now this time. aren't you going to come and take my hand? why are you not here ='( why are you not here? why are you not answering me..why are you not here? ='(