xoxo

it's been so long since i wrote for my very own blog. i used to have a blog once but i stopped writing as so many things came up that i had to deal with. then i started writing for the blog i shared with my two friends, just to update each other on our lives. but then again, we stopped writing for some silly reasons. so why do i want to start blogging again now? well, in two days' time, i'll be staying in damansara to study which is quite far away from home, and i don't have an access tool to the internet like a notebook or something, although they do provide computers at the study area for the students to use, i don't think i'd spend much time there because i know i'd get so tired after class and so on as i'll have to walk to class everyday, and i'm still getting used to the campus life and trying to meet as many new friends as possible, so, i thought it's good to have a blog so that i could at least let go of what i'm feeling inside till i find the right friend to tell.

A bit about myself? I don't know where to start,but i think i don't have to tell much as you 'll find out more as i write one post after another...soon. I dedicate my life to my family.., I devote my love to my onlyy.., I give only the best of me to my best friend.., and I have all the love in the world for everybody around me. That's just, me. But I always seem to be some kind of a burden to almost everyone around me, sometimes things convince me that i don't really belong here. I always feel helpless and hopeless all at once but then, life just has to go on until my heart really stops beating. I've lost hope in my own life years back, i've lost my dreams in my future way long ago, and time after time, i lose myself to life's insistence. But as i pick myself up after each breakdown, i told myself that i'm going to have to be super strong because i'm living life now not for myself, but for the people i love, for my family. And so, that's why i'm still standing, stepping forward, trying my level best to make them proud. Because this life, is dedicated to them.

With Allah to help and guide me, with my bintang to stand by me, with faith and courage to keep me going, insyaAllah, I can do this, I'm going to make it through it all.