what have I gotten myself into?

In the name of Allah.


So guess what, I went through my previous posts and found this one in my draft. Guess I did not have the time/guts/who knows to finish this one so here it is, completed, yet I've got soo much more to talk on this one.


With lots of love and longing...here goes:


You are irreplaceable, you are special, the best of your kind, you are my all-time favourite, you are my star, you are my one and the only, you know why?


Because my cheeks never stop hurting everytime I'm with you, cuz I never stop smiling, laughing - you make me smile 360degrees.
And when you're by my side, everything falls back into place, every single thing, every piece of the puzzle fits itself into the picture.
Everytime you're with me, I have nothing to worry about, the thought of you fills my brain and it's fullhouse! You know, nothing else can fit in anymore.
And when I'm with you, I can be that girl I always wanted to be, the girl I enjoy to be, the girl I was before, and I can just be myself, act stupid, get spoiled-rotten, like a fat kid in a candy shop.
It's either the world around us just stops or that I was just too into the moment that I forgot anything else existed. In short, you're the perfect distraction.
You're perfect.
When you look at me and by the way you look at me, I know there's no where else I'd rather be and nothing else I'd rather do than to have you look at me that way my entire life, even when my skin is all wrinkled and my hair is all grey.
Everytime you hold my hand, we're just unbreakable.
And the thought of you alone makes me want to go on for another day.
And the thought that we were young but we took our chances, makes me want to fight for us till the very end, no matter how hard it gets along the way.
And because your kisses are sweeter than all the cakes and chocolates in the world yet you can kiss me all you want and not get me killed for diabetes. 
And that we're best when we're together.
And it's because even though you're far away from me sometimes, you always come visit me in my dreams.
It's because when your love fills my air, even oxygen tastes sweet.
And because we never get tired of falling in love with each other over and over.
And everytime you tell me you love me, all my heart asks is "Will you just marry me?"
And when you really ask me that, well I keep asking, "will you marry me already?" hehe, kidding.
Everytime you ask me the question, I never get bored of saying, "I will, I will, I will".
And because everytime you hug me, our heartbeat says it all.

I love you.

I'll wait an entire lifetime for you, so take your time. I know you have your very own dreams to chase for, go for it. But if time runs out the moment you want to come for me, it might be too late but promise me you'll still come for me in another life.


...though I know very well that you deserve so much better...than me.