FOUR

In the name of Allah.


"Why show me happiness, why teach me what it is, why give it to me if you were going to snatch it away anyway?"


Day after day, slowly, and painfully, piece after piece of the puzzle is taken out and away, and day by day that beautiful picture is ruined, the picture that was once never there and has been made crystal clear to the view of the believer now only appears to be a broken vision, shattered and no longer or will ever be complete. Her happiness is taken away from her, one after another, slowly leaving gaps in between herself and finally leaving her empty. Too empty, too hurtful, that she's even forgotten the things she's still left with. She did not even want to know or remember if she still has anything even if she still has anything at all. All that's left her has made her feel empty enough to forget why she even existed. And he...was the last thing she had, the last person left, and he was the last one who had finally slipped away. 


"Why, you'll regret it one day"


"I love you, even if my body vanishes, my soul will seek you forever"
"I'll stay with you"
"I promise"


".......you'll regret it one day"
"I love you"


"Why..."
"I love you"
"I promise"


She recalled each and every word.


"I promise"
"I promise"


Over and over and over again.
One thing that never left her mind was that simple thing he said that kept her so strong all along, all this while, "I want to make you the happiest girl alive, I want to make you happy". Is it because she gripped on those words too tightly that they all slipped away from her, now no longer heard nor spoken. All that's left are flashes of memories of those moments flying by, stopping by once in a while and then flying back away. How could she ever know? He probably finally regretted. Finally. Maybe. How could she have ever known? Now not only he's left her, he's left her during the freaking hardest time of her life, when everything was falling apart, her family, her health, everything, that's when he decided to leave. How could she have ever known?