tell me something..

In the name of The Almighty, my only listener.


Tell me what I'm fighting for, tell me what's worth fighting for. Why did you get me into this if you were going to do this to me, why did you get me into this so deep if you were going to abandon me like this, why did you get me into this if you were going to take this thing for granted, and why didn't you tell me that it was going to be this hurtful, when you first dragged me into this, why didn't you tell me it was going to break my heart and keep tearing it apart, why didn't anyone tell me before? Is it too wrong to start so early like we did? What else have I done wrong? I'm not God, I wouldn't know if you wouldn't tell, so tell me goddamnit! Are you leaving me to fight on my own? But why? :'( You would never do that, would you? I know so. But why does it seem like you are? Why do I have to learn and get everything the hard way..I know life's hard, it's never easy and I know that, you don't know how well I know that. I don't fall for this so easily, you know it, but you got it, you got me, you've made me fall for this thing after all those hard work, and you've got me into this too deep already, so now what, leave me hanging? Wait till I lose grip and watch me let go? You know I won't, you know I can't, you know you told me to never give up on you no matter what comes in our way, you know, did you forget? Well, yes, that's right, and that's what I'm holding on for. Because I won't give up on you, I won't give up on us, tell me now to stop and give it up, I still can't :'( What have you done.. I'm tired, haven't you noticed? Tell me something that I really wish and want to know right now..tell me the truth. Wait, you're not that boy I fell in love with years back, I know, right? So where did you keep him? Because I'm suffering too much already, please give him back to me, give me my childhood love back, the love of my life, he's mine don't you know? So don't you ever steal him from me like this. You don't know how much he loves me, he would walk me to school and back home everyday, he would sit beside me and look after me for as long as I wanted when I got sick, he would sing to me randomly just to make me smile at random, he would never let me cry like this because he's always been there to wipe all the tears I cried, because he's always been there to lend his shoulder, he would love me like no one else could, and that's the boy I fell in love with years ago, we grew up together, we know even the slightest change between us two. Or have you got a new favourite now? Because you're still my all-time favourite, and always will be, you know that. Tell me where did I go wrong, and tell me just one thing and I'll leave you for good; tell me you're not happy with me and you don't love me anymore, I'll leave, I'll let go then, for good, and I promise you won't cross my mind ever again :'( you know that's impossible, so you tell me that, so you can see how the impossible is made possible for you. Tell me that. Tell me. If you still love me, then tell me you're still fighting for this with me. Tell me. Tell me. :'( tell me will you..